yeeeeeahhhh! I get to go home today:  Good thing?  not sure.  I have to go back to work and fight that there is mold where I work and cigar smoke is killing me.  The boss insists there is no mold, however you can smell it when you walk in and see it on the walls and vents and the fact that he smokes cigars in there kills me.  They are either going to fire me, change offices or just make me stay there and suffer.  If the third thing happens, I will end up calling osha and doli and they will end up paying for the 14 thousand dollars of medical bills.  If they fire me, same scenario and if they change offices, I wll be surprised and for the first time felt as if they wanted me to be there.  There is another note of going home that will be upsetting.  I am under the superstition that nothing in my house has been done, no cleaning washing and it will just be more of  a mess for me to deal with.  At least I have my dog.  I will be happy to go home, but will miss the peace and quiet, not to mention the good drugs.  I have pretty much slept all day everyday here, which is ok since there is nothing else to do.  I did write a second verse to my song and another bridge, but the second verse has to be rewritten as I could not use the guitar while writing it (3 am inspiration) and it is alittle off rhythm.  It sure sounds similar to other songs but I believe different enought to make it.   I am just going to get a bad tape recording of it soon, just so you all can hear it and give me feed back.

 

If none of you have noticed, I have been checking everytime you update your sites, I just haven't always commented.  I have been alittle out of it this week.  Looking forward to freedom. 

 

Hey is it just me or do we seem to have a lack of visitors lateley?  I have not had many visitors to my site, how about you guys?  Or is it just that everyone is finally tired of all my crap and want to read something else? lol  let me know.. I have had a significant decrease in readership, (probably because I haven't been able to update often enough).  I have also had a bit of bloggers block this last few months and haven't been able to come up with anything interesting.  Although, I do have some custody news and some information on those lines.  see you soon!  Laura

 

In case you all were wondering, I am back in the hospital.  I don't think I will be here very long though, 3 to 5 days is all.  I am actually enjoying this so far.  I've only had one fruitcake roommate so far.  Last time I had two before they finally gave up and stopped putting people in with me.  This on has only whined at me 6 or 7 times and I have only had to fetch her nurse 4 times.  I am now alone!  Yippie!  I wrote a new song on monday and have been showing it off to the nurses... I like it.  It isn't quite finished yet but it is a very promising work in progress.  I have been dying to tell you all about it and I tried to call maggie several times to sing it to her, but alas, she has been swamped at work.  I will probably get fired for this hospitalization.  So be it.  I will call OSHA and show them the mold levels and daily cigar smoke my company has been aware of and the severe allergy I have to those things.  Medical Bills?  What medical bills?  Anyway, on another note (no pun intended) here is my new song:

 

It was a long drive home across the eighty two, been raining non stop for a day or two.  Trucks were passing by waves were hitting the car, I knew right then that we couldnt get far.  So I pulled off the road and I called my mom, told her better start prayin I can get us home.  And as I pulled away, I heard my baby boy say,

 

{Hey momma, I can see Jesus on the hood of our car, he's all lit up like a shooting star.  No need to worry we'll {get home alright, he's gonna watch over us all through the night.  We'll be home soon, can you see him too?

 

**I looked at my boy, his eyes filled with wonder at the sight, and then I knew, were gonna be alright.

 

{ = chorus

** = verse

 

I will add one verse, then bridge, chorus, bridge and chorus again.  Maybe a key change here or there. on the last chorus perhaps.  Work in progress,  I think it will be great! 

 

So everyone, put me in your prayers and make sure you ask God to give me the power to stop smoking.  I miss you guys and will be blog walking again soon.

 

Manny:  The right click feature is enabled on my player and if you go to properties you can copy the url for your ipod.  You will be the only person in the whole world I know of that will have that song on an Ipod, go ahead, feel special

 

Ok it isn't really a fair game because the artist name on the song is at the bottom, but if you don't peek... you can try and guess who is singing this song.  Maggie, Angie, and Dave already know!  I will tell you tomorrow.  See if you can guess without peeking!

 

Now, it stopped working... darnit!  I will try again.  Oh and the way to do it without peeking is to scroll down to the next entry before the song starts and when it finishes... click comments and make your guess.

 

Ok it now is working!  Make your guesses!!!  Good luck and tune in tomorrow night to find out the answer!!!

 

 

Alrighty then... since no one has visited and/or guessed, I will not be giving the answer tonight.  DADBURNIT!  SOBANNABOTCHU!  Is it not working again????  I think it may be my computer..not sure... someone let me know if this is working???

 

 

Miracle or Luck?  You be the judge.. Some of you know the situation at my job, always feeling as if I will get fired.  In fact, this was heard twice last week "don't make me fire you" repeated several times then being hit on by my evil boss.  This boss Never goes on vacation, NEVER.  He took two days off all last year and hadn't had a vacation before that in about 5 years.  He works 7 days a week from open to close, except on thursdays when he goes to the auction to buy cars and every once in a while goes to Seattle to buy cars but is back by the afternoon on both occurences. (Rumor has it that the other owner forced him to go on vacation)  OK, now for the second part.

 

I have really never met my brother Bryan, the last time I saw him, he was 4 years old.  He is now 25.  My other brother Gary, I haven't seen in 18 years.  Well, this has been planned for quite some time that they are coming to visit all this week and Gary is coming tonight!!!  We have been planning this since november.  It is the first time we will all be together in 21 years!  It has been suggested we go on Oprah,  but noone wants to go to Chicago.

 

I don't know if it is God's thank you to me that has made my Boss go on vacation This week out of all the weeks in the world for bringing my family back together, or Luck or just plain good Karma.  Please Vote and let me know what you think!  All I know is that maybe I should buy a lottery ticket, this is Amazing! 

 

On another note, sorry I haven't been able to blog in a while, My boss has been keeping a close eye on me and although I have peeked my head in many of your sites, I haven't been able to comment.  I know I have lost many of my readers, and I only hope some of you will come back once I get more time to blog and blogwalk.

First of all I promised Tabby to tell my "how we met" story for Valentines, and I am just a little late, sorry.

 

Ok, I was only 22 and very "hot" as the kids say today.  My girlfriend and I decided to go out one night.  Normally we always went Karaoke because it is a great passion of mine.  She talked me in to going dancing instead.  I had never been to this club, and in walked the most handsome man I had ever seen in my young life.  We made eye contact, but it was late and we didn't speak.  My girlfriend and I decided to go there again the next night (I went mostly to see if he would be there again).  He was there and wiggled his finger at me in the "come here" gesture.  Normally when a man would do something like that, I would be thinking "yeah right, dream on buddy", but I sort of googly eyed bounced over to where he was sitting.  He bought me a drink and we started talking, it went something like this:  Me:  "so what do you do"?  Him:  "oh, I'm in sales"  "really", I said "me too!  What kind of sales are you in"?  He said "oh, all kinds of stuff" (he didn't want to tell me).  I said "well, I sell Kirby vacuumes".  To which he replied " Oh my God! I sell Rainbows!"  I yelled "holy cow, I can't be seen with you"!  We laughed and talked for hours, then we made out in the parking lot for a couple more hours and have been inseparable ever since.  I must say, he is the best kisser in the whole world (at least for me).  We are so alike and so different, but we are meant for each other.  We can almost read each other's thoughts.  Maybe I will get him to tell his side of it on an update to this blog.

 

For those of you that don't know, Kirby and Rainbows are fierce rivals, to the point of when leaving the Kirby company to sell rainbows, they asked me where my morals were! 

 

Happy Valentine's (belated) everyone!

 

 

Ok!  I have loads of stuff to talk about today! 

 

1. SLEEPOVER!!!!   I get to have 11 kids over to my house for a sleep over!!!!  I love kids so it's ok.  They range from ages 2 to 13 so it won't be too hard.  We are gonna watch movies, play board games, have snacks, play video games, and I can start some of the younger ones on how to use the computer!!  My husband is great at making up games for kids specifically designed to wear them out while requiring little effort from you.  I think we are going to write a book about it.

 

2.  THE SPOKANE INTERNATIONAL AUTO SHOW!!!!  I love the auto show!  I used to sell knives and other products, live in front of people.  You know, the knives that cut through the hammer and the cutting board and you can still throw a tomato lightly at it and it will cut it in half.  (yes, they really do work, so next time you see one at a store demonstration or the fair.  take advantage of it.  6 knives and 2 juicers for 23 bucks is a steal.  also ask the guy if he has steak knives, they are the best.)  At the auto show, they have free food for us workers and really cool cars to look at.  we are selling one 20k car for only 15,596! really!  Great deals at the auto show.  (for those of you that live in Spokane or surrounding areas, call me at Hallmark Automotive group on sprague and I will see if I can get you tickets to it! ask for Laura. also btw: I am not in sales).

 

3.  FAMILY REUNION!!!!  Some of you know about my Brother Gary, I haven't seen him in 18 years!  Well, I have another brother Bryan, whom I haven't seen for 21 years (he is only 25).  My Brother James lives here and my sisters live here too.  My Dad just moved here a couple of years ago from Oregon.  He hasn't seen Bryan in that whole time too.  Bryan wrote him a letter when he was 18, saying, I don't know who you are and I dont want to have anything to do with you.  When I contacted Gary about 5 years ago, we spoke for a long time on the phone and he was having a hard time forgiving dad for the things he had done.  I bridged these gaps for the first time.  See, my dad was not a good father when we were young.  He drank heavily and by the time I was 4 years old, I had the number to the bar memorized.  (I can still recall it)  Well, about 12 years ago, my dad quit drinking and became a different person than the one we had grown up with, however, my brothers (gary and bryan) did not know this.  I suddenly got a call from bryan wanting to come visit.  MY PRAYERS HAD BEEN ANSWERED!  He and his wife have planned the trip for the last week of this month!  HALLELUIA!!!!  Now Gary, as you know from one of my previous entries, was in Iraq.  I emailed him often and told him I wish he could make it too.  He was sent to Kuwait in January and did not know for sure when he was coming home (you know the Army).  I received a phone call from him last week!!!!! WTF???!!! All the way from Kuwait!!!!!  He was getting out in five days!!! ANOTHER ANSWERED PRAYER~!!!!!  The Good Lord is blessing me sooooo much!  Then he also told me "I am really looking forward to meeting Bryan" WTF????!!!! then he said " I will probably fly in, would anyone be able to pick me up from the airport?"  ARE YOU KIDDING!!! We will all be fighting to be the one to pick you up!!!  There are at least 5 or 6 of us DYING  to see you!!!  YET, ANOTHER PRAYER ANSWERED!!!  GARY WILL ALSO MAKE IT TO THE REUNION!!!!  This is the makings of a great Oprah show!!! but none of us want to go to Chicago *sigh* hmmm, but then again... we might get free stuff! hmmmmmm.  I will update again soon and maybe do some fun site trivia or maybe... A scavenger hunt!!!! Yeah, that it!  A spaces scavenger hunt! right on!  See you all Soooooon!!!!!!!

ok ok ok ok.... I am still alive contrary to popular belief.  I have been gone way too long *sheepish grimace*.  My husband's back went out severely and had to go to the ER twice.  While there, they evaluated him for surgery.  It seems his one of his bulging (dirty mind) Discs has exploded.  Here is where my Rant comes in:

 

Had my husband had good insurance, they would have immediately sent him to surgery.  My insurance is tops, they didn't hesitate to keep me when I was really bad off, but he does not have the coverage I do.  His is through the state.  Now, the doctor will only get a third of the rate for doing surgery and it is a proven fact that a third of their income goes to malpractice insurance.  So were they to perform surgery on my husband they would be taking a risk of being sued for malpractice while not making any money.  So they wont do it.  I believe that a person should be entitled to the same health care regardless of coverage.

 

Get this one:  While at the emergency room, I overheard a gal talking on a cell phone.  She was telling a story about a baby.  A two month old baby.  He has been in and out of the Doctor's all month.  The "free clinic".  Ok, the baby weighs only 6 pounds.. that's right 6 POUNDS at TWO MONTH OLD.   It seems the baby cannot hold down any of its formula.  The baby's mother has switched formulas as directed several times.  Then, the baby stopped messing it's diaper.  It hasn't gone potty in over a week.  The Physician's Assistant (which is like a doctor) at the "free clinic" said....get this:  the baby is fine.  THE BABY IS FINE????? WTF???? WTF?????!!!!!  The baby will DIE BECAUSE YOU ARE SO F***ING INCOMPITENT!!! YOU STUPID F###!!~!!  All because the parents are poor and don't have "real" Insurance.  They kept taking the baby to the ER, but the ER gets pi**ed off because apparently they aren't supposed to bring the baby there. (another overheard tidbit from the nurses).  EXCUSE ME!  IF YOUR BABY WAS DYING FROM SOME DUMBA**ES INCOMPITENCE YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING YOU COULD TO MAKE THAT BABY SURVIVE.  I "hate" the "free clinic".  They treat everyone there as if they are prostitutes drug Addicts or homeless people.  I know, before I had insurance I was force to endure thier stupid assumptions.  Now I have excellent insurance.  The best insurance.  They roll out the red carpet for me.  Do all the tests.  EVERYTHING!

 

Do you think everyone should get the same treatment regardless of coverage?  Let me know. 

 

 

A few years ago, I had a nervous breakdown.  I tried to commit suicide three times.  As I was coming out of the severe depression, I came up with a unique and interesting poem.  I thought I would share it with you.